Why must one fight darkness?

Some one told me of an experience he had while in jail - a child brought before the father to be tortured so that the father would " confess "


For some reason today, this picture has been in my mind - on the day my son died, 9 years ago.
This question kept going through my head : What would you as a parent do?
Would you confess anything just to save your child?
What will your child think of you - will your child understand that you did this to love him?
Or, would your child see you as a coward who does not stand for truth?


Does it matter whether it is for political reasons or for faith?


A parent who will not deny his faith, does so knowing that the things of this world are temporary and though your child may be killed too, he will live for eternity.
What about torture? How does a parent watch his child being tortured for not denying Jesus.


Dark and difficult thoughts. I lost a son in this world. I am struggling hard to stay positive for the rest of my family, but i am not doing a very good job. I longed for gentle words and comforting words from those i loved. I longed for a hug and something to just tell me that they are with me in thought.. i so longed for those words.....

It feels to me it would be easier to just fade away to nothingness.


Yet daily there are parents who face much worse than i do. My thoughts and feelings are so selfish, yet it is a very lonely path one walks


God forgive me